Forever Dream

I'm tired...
Going from day to day, knowing that nothing in this world is in my favour.
I'm tired...
Waking up to the sun, knowing that it's just another day of me with only myself.
I'm tired...
Walking around, knowing that it's just gonna be me against the world.
I'm tired...
Crying my heart out, knowing that I've always been deprived of hope.
I'm tired...
Clutching this pain, knowing that I can never have what I long for.
I'm tired...
So let me just close my eyes and dream.
For in my dream I'm save from all harm, no tears for me to cry, no pain for me to feel.
If a dream can remove this tiredness I've always feel, then let me forever dream....

Stop!

Cold wind seems to seep through my bone
I feel so lost
My heart turns to stone
Whenever I see the journal you post

You seem so eager to devour the world
Conquer every corner of the unknown universe
A free soul....

I'm too afraid to look into me
Scared to find that I might feel
Over something that's so unreal
As vague as the distant stars I couldn't really see

Stop!
I ordered myself to stop
This cannot go on
I know that I'm just a sad lovelorn

I wrote this in tears
For not willing to overcome my fears
For not willing to move on
From something I've lost for so long