Silent Tears

"I don't like him that much to cry over him!"
For the thousand times she said it to herself and to her best friends.
"Don't deceive your own heart! You know that's not true!"
One of her best friends shouts the words at her.
"Stop saying that. I'm fine!"
The truth is...she is hurting to the bone. She refuses to tell her best friends the truth about what she is feeling. Not even once a soul sees her in tears, and she wants to keep it that way.

The story goes back to the previous month, when she was devastated as her love story ended violently. She cried her tears out for days...even nearly spilled it out in front of her best friends. She was sure that it's going to take years to heal the pretty much broken heart of her.
She lost all hopes to find a new love, when unexpectedly a soul grabbed her heart...a figure she never thought can fill her days with smile again.
"It's so unusual of me to be like this. I fall unexpectedly. I've never been able to get up from a broken heart this fast before. It's a miracle. HE is a miracle."
With a face full of smile, she told her best friends about what has happen to her.
"We're happy to see you happy again."
The sincere expression of happiness was said by her best friends. Indeed, they were happy to see her smile again.
She was enjoying every second of his presence. But something dark sat in the far corner of her heart...something waiting to spill tragedy over her love...something evil called broken heart.

"Why can't he forget her? Why won't he leave all of her memory behind? Why won't he open his heart for me?"
Those questions were revolving around her head the night after she heard about the secret of his heart. She could not seem to forget what one of her best friends told her. He is still holding on tight to the lost love that crushed him years ago. He is still waiting for her, waiting for a resolution over his troubled heart.
"Oh...I guess I'm going to have to put this all to an end."
That's the only thing she can think of as an answer when her best friends confronted her with the matter.
"You can make him forget about her. You can make him throw away the memory by starting a whole new story with him."
But she knew it was impossible. She knew that her love had once again let her down.
"It's OK. I don't like him that much anyway."
Thousands of lies spill out of her lips. Lies she created to cover up the pain that was starting to overwhelm her.

Now, days after what had happened, she is still crying over him at certain times. She is still wishing that if only she'd known him way before he met the girl he can't let go of. She is still gazing at his pictures. She is still thinking of him...And the biggest secret that she has been keeping from her best friends is that until this very second, she is still very much in love with him...

-I will always be something you fail to understand. Someone who waits for you, somewhere behind the memory you have no intention of forgetting-