As I read words after words of romance,
I choked....
I feel nothing like the being-single-but-happy-who-turned-out-to-have-her-man-anyway-chick in the book I've been reading.
Reminiscing my own story, it's been quite a while since the last time I became the main character of a romance. Actually, it has been years....
People say that I may be too picky...People say that I haven't been opening my heart to welcome a new prince charming...People say that I've been drowning too much in sadness and sorrow of a previous lost...Well, I say I just haven't found one that I can give my heart to.
Sometimes I winced thinking about this. How many of my friends seems to find their soulmate so effortless.
Aren't they scared that they might make the wrong choice? Are they really sure that they want to spend the rest of their life together?
That's the questions and considerations that I speak out loud. The truth is, all I am wondering is that "how can you be sure that the person you are with right now is the one? how do you know it's real? what kind of feelings do you feel? how and when did you find him???"
Bla...bla...bla...that's what I say when people keep asking where's my man and when will I join their precious "I'm Married" club. I may look like I don't really care, but actually I do...more than anyone would ever know.
I'm scared...I'm terrified...not only because right now I'm alone and I'm lonely...but also because I feel empty and numb...No boyfriends, No crushes, NOTHING!
I choked....
I feel nothing like the being-single-but-happy-who-turned-out-to-have-her-man-anyway-chick in the book I've been reading.
Reminiscing my own story, it's been quite a while since the last time I became the main character of a romance. Actually, it has been years....
People say that I may be too picky...People say that I haven't been opening my heart to welcome a new prince charming...People say that I've been drowning too much in sadness and sorrow of a previous lost...Well, I say I just haven't found one that I can give my heart to.
Sometimes I winced thinking about this. How many of my friends seems to find their soulmate so effortless.
Aren't they scared that they might make the wrong choice? Are they really sure that they want to spend the rest of their life together?
That's the questions and considerations that I speak out loud. The truth is, all I am wondering is that "how can you be sure that the person you are with right now is the one? how do you know it's real? what kind of feelings do you feel? how and when did you find him???"
Bla...bla...bla...that's what I say when people keep asking where's my man and when will I join their precious "I'm Married" club. I may look like I don't really care, but actually I do...more than anyone would ever know.
I'm scared...I'm terrified...not only because right now I'm alone and I'm lonely...but also because I feel empty and numb...No boyfriends, No crushes, NOTHING!
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